butterflygirl's Trying To Conceive Wish

On day 23 of my cycle I had spotting then day 24 a little more day 25 a little more so when I woke this morning I fully expected my period to be here heavy . Well its not and I haven't had a heavy day at all just very little bloodand I always have2 heavy days . So I'm wishfully thinking that its implantation bleeding. Why do we do this to ourselves? Please god don't let my period come back and let me get a bfp.