Anonymous Losing Weight Wish

Disgusted by what I see in the mirror. My weight has yoyo'ed so much over the years that not only am I overweight, but I have loose skin and AWFUL stretch marks. I sometimes claw at myself because I cannot deal with my appearance. While the loose skin would be worse again & the stretch marks won't go away, I would give anything to lose at least 75lbs so that I can fit into clothes, and stop seeing myself as a grotesque monster.