Anonymous Trying To Conceive Wish

I have been trying for a year since I had my youngest, I'm losing hope that I will get another baby to hold and another member of my family. My fiancee is thinking it's his fault and I'm thinking it's mine, he hates it when I take a test and my monthly starts and I cry the whole time I'm bleeding. We have seven children already but we want to have one more to complete the family.