PoisonxIvy's Trying To Conceive Wish

My fiancée and I have been trying to get pregnant for 6 years. I took a break for a few years after the fertility specialist and all the negative pregnancy tests I couldn't handle the disappointment anymore so we just left it up to fate and so far still nothing, so for now I?m back at it. I currently have 2 very close friends that are pregnant and weren't trying both considered abortion. I can't help but feel anger and jealousy and it's clouding me being able to just be happy for them.