Monalisa's My Pregnancy Wish

I wish I was pregnant but I know with the medicines I'm on it would be bad for the baby and I'd have to go off of them very quickly. Yet I want another baby and I'm not sure that I want it in 5 years like Matt desires. Plus with all the complications of Lex I don't need that again. Guess I'll know in a day or two. But let be what will be. But I'm scared. I'm admitting it.