NatalieJean's Trying To Conceive Wish

it took me 4 years to get over the pain of having an abortion. me & my bf (same guy) are now ready to start trying to conceive. im terrified that God will not bless us with another angel because of what i did 4 years ago. ive been working on "forgiveness" a part of me has accepted that God forgives me, but i dont think i forgive me yet. hoping for another miracle. keeping our fingers crossed!!