Girlyfufu's Trying To Conceive Wish

I'm going on month 14 of TTC My mind plays tricks on me thinking I feel pregnent this month and every month. But this time I had to what I believe as Implantion bleeding. Why was it so easy the first time and now I have to just watch everyone else. I cant handle the heart ach anymore. Lord and wishing well. If I am not pregnent this month I will leave me dreams behind me, Please dont let me lose hope or faith and give me this one wish of a heathly pregnency and a heathly baby.