Choctaw's Trying To Conceive Wish

I've been ttc for awhile. I'm getting kind of restless since we've been trying for about 2 years. I was looking for AF today, but there's always tomorrow. I am 13 dpo and kind of nervous to even take an HPT. I have been hurt with this TTC before and don't want to go through it again. I really haven't had any symptoms, but the usual b4 my AF (sore bbs, lower back pain, cramping) but it seems like that went away today. Well, all I can do is wait on tomorrow and report back on what happened.