01134kristi's TTC after m/c Wish

My birthday is around the corner, 28. Last year I found out I was pregnant on my birthday but m/c 11 weeks later on my daughters 2nd birthday. My period is due on my b-day again... And I don't know what to wish for. Do I want to spare my heart from the memory of last year and get my period or wish to not see it in hopes for a better outcome?