Given Up....

I totally know where all of you are coming from and I sympathize. My husband had a vasectomy when we married and we weren't able to afford the reversal procedure until June 2005. At the time of the procedure the doctor showed us pictures of the sperm and there were very FEW normal looking ones and he explained that was because the vasectomy was 15 years old and that the sperm had degenerated themselves because they had nowhere to go, and that within six months they should improve. So we began TTC in July 2005 and to date, we still have not conceived. I was so excited in the beginning! Everytime my period was late, I would run to the store to get a HPT, only to be disappointed when I got a BFN.

After a year passed with us not conceiving. I went to my gyno for my annual well woman and discussed our plans. He did a pelvic ultrasound on me and saw that I had a developing egg in my ovary at that time and did some blood work which indicated that my hormone levels were no where close to menopausal. My periods are still right on time each month like clock work, so he suggested that since everything appeared okay with me, that my husband get tested. A month later we went to the dcotor who performed the reversal procedure and my husband gave a sample. After a year, my husbands sperm had not improved. He had very few actual swimmers but most were not forward moving swimmers. To the lady who posted on the first page saying that it's not always the woman at fault when a couple cannot conceive, you are absolutely right. Sometimes, it's the man.

It's almost two years since the reversal procedure and although I still hope and pray for a miracle every month, I've given up hope for the most part. I'm happy for people who become pregnant, but it angers me that those who don't want babies or can't care for them properly can conceive so easily and someone who WANTS a baby, can't even have ONE :-(