Frustrated. . . that's an understatement!!

I'm way beyond TTC frustration. I never thought it would take so long TTC #2. My DH & I have been married over 5 years and have a beautiful 3 1/2 year old daughter. In January 06, we decided it was time to add to our family. So we started trying that March. Which brings us to the present. We've gotten out hopes up for 16 months only to be let down each time. Not even a maybe. We had several tests done in May. Fortunately, everything checked out OK. Now I'm awaiting results to a progestrone test. Hope they're ok too. I'm thankful that all the tests have been good but at the same time I wish there was a reason behind the failures. Dr. said keep trying naturally til Nov and if nothing by then, we'll be sent to a RE. I've done the OPK, BBT's, saliva test kits and anything else I can think of to increase our chances. I've gotten to the point where I'm so tired of trying. It sucks to get my hopes up every month thinking 'this may be it' only to have a visit from Aunt Flo. Then to have everyone ask "so when are you gonna have another one?" And I know family and friends mean well when they say things like "be patient", "it'll happen", "stop trying so hard". Frankly I'm sick of hearing it.

And why does it seem like everyone around me has had no trouble conceiving? My sister-in-law is pregnant with her 3rd (two conceived during 1st month of trying); a cousin pregnant w/ her 3rd; a cousin pregnant w/ her 1st (conceived during 1st month); and several friends due before the end of the year. UGH!!! I'm happy for them but at the same time sad that its not me. I try to be interested and excited about their pregnancies but really I just want to crawl into a hole.

Everytime I see my daughter's smiling face I know its all worth it. And so I'll keep trying and praying for a precious new baby. Blessings and baby dust to all of you going through this too. Thanks for letting my vent.