so much expectation

hey ive come to the point where ive nearly given up i had an ectopic pregnancy march/april and i have had previouse pregnancys i also have two lovely children but luckily i didnt need surgery and have both of my tubes but i had t wait for two normal periods before we could start trying again after what we had gone through we decided not to tell anyone because everyone got hurt last time ive just had my period so im not preganant after trying we was gutted although i was a day early which was unusual for me hopefully we will get there in the end but how much heartache can you take the build up the letdown the tears the depression you end up asking yourself is it worth it ...yes it is you want to complete your family and i want to make my bf happy has he has no children yet so much pressure .