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Conception Frustrations?
If you're trying to conceive and it's taking longer than you had hoped, what frustrations are you running into? Is it that just about everyone around you seems to be pregnant? Or, something someone said? Or, is you-know-who (your mom, his mom...) pressuring you or asking when way too often? Does it sometimes feel like TTC is more like Trying to Cope?
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I feel like a complete ogre at times
Posted by:
sapphirewriter
on Mon Aug 13, 2007
My DH & I have been TTC for 1.5 years. And I HATE my friends right now. All of my friends are either have kids or are pregnant right now. I wish I didn't hate them, I love them as friends still deep down but on the surface I hate them. I am completly heartbroken every month, some months worse than others. I had an ovarian cyst 9 months ago that made my period 45 days late. It was the worst because I kept thinking maybe this is it. I kept taking tests and getting BFN but I also kept reading about women who's pregnancies didn't show up on HPT's so I kept hoping and praying and then no, it was a stupid cyst, and it went away on it's own so I am grateful for that but still nothing.
So I scrapped myself up and dusted off and bam next thing I know 4 people pregnant at work. I had to sit here watching them everyday, have everyone asking me, are you next are you next. Now they all have babies, I am still trying. Now this cycle is totally messed up. I am almost a week late, BFN's on the HPT's I feel like I might have a cyst again and today feel like I am getting a Kidney infection. The hits keep coming.
I can't help but just cry my eyes out everytime I see a baby on tv, I start crying when I am looking at magazines. My DH is worried about me and knows I am completly depressed. It's awful. I got pg once very easily when I was 19 but I had a MC. Now it's like everyone around me keeps saying how easy it was for them. Oh we weren't even trying. UGH I want to punch them in the mouth.
And the Relax crap. I want to scream everytime they say relax, go on vacation, have you tried this or that. YES I HAVE, just SHUT UP. Now I am sure they all think I am the worlds biggest BIATCH and I really don't care anymore. I just want one thing in my life to come easily instead of fighting for it tooth and nail.
So I scrapped myself up and dusted off and bam next thing I know 4 people pregnant at work. I had to sit here watching them everyday, have everyone asking me, are you next are you next. Now they all have babies, I am still trying. Now this cycle is totally messed up. I am almost a week late, BFN's on the HPT's I feel like I might have a cyst again and today feel like I am getting a Kidney infection. The hits keep coming.
I can't help but just cry my eyes out everytime I see a baby on tv, I start crying when I am looking at magazines. My DH is worried about me and knows I am completly depressed. It's awful. I got pg once very easily when I was 19 but I had a MC. Now it's like everyone around me keeps saying how easy it was for them. Oh we weren't even trying. UGH I want to punch them in the mouth.
And the Relax crap. I want to scream everytime they say relax, go on vacation, have you tried this or that. YES I HAVE, just SHUT UP. Now I am sure they all think I am the worlds biggest BIATCH and I really don't care anymore. I just want one thing in my life to come easily instead of fighting for it tooth and nail.
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