So Sad

My Husband and I were able to become pregnant with our son the first month after we decided that we wanted to have a baby, our son is now three and we have want to have another. We have been trying for the last 6 months and as the months go on I become more depresses because my son gets older and we wanted the two children to enjoy each others company in the younger years if possible and that is fading and every time I see a pregnant woman or a newborn a little part of my cries inside. I love My son with all of heart but he had colic for the from the second month of his birth to 7 months old he has colic. We thought that there was something so wrong with him and even had tests run on him at the hospital. He did enjoy the baby swing and that did seem to calm him so we did not get hold or cuddle him, then once he was cured he became so independent and still is. He is such a lover but an independent one. I would feel selfish if I did not have another one, my son is such a spectaular wonder and to not share another little gift would break my heart. My husband and I are a younger couple and have tried ovulation tests but have not yet discussed the issue with my doctor I guess because I would hope that I'm younger therefore I should not have a conception issue. I don't know. Thank you for letting me vent.