Hurts so bad!

My husband and I got married March 31,07. On July 20, 07 I took a test and it said I was pregnant. We were shocked but very excited. The day after I found out I started to bleed. I had to wait 2 more days until Monday to call my doctor. The nurse told me that everything was normal and it would go away... well I went in that same day to take a test there. They didn't check me or anything. Just took my pee and said yes mamm.. you are going to be a mom. Then next day I woke up in pain and things were worse. When I called my doctor they told me to come in... 4 hours later. The baby wasn't located where it should have been and I had a miscarriage. A year before I had a miscarriage my sister-in-law also had one. I am still having a hard time today dealing with it. We have been trying ever since and the hardest part is, now my sister-in-law is expecting along with many other girls that I know. I am really happy for my sister-in-law, but it still hurts me. I can't even talk to her about it and enjoy it with her. She has started to show and it kills me because right now I am supposed to be 32 weeks along. People make comments like next Christmas is going to be something special with a new baby around. I just want to say HELLO!!! You are hurting my feelings. But I don't. I just hold it in until they are gone and then I cry until I don't think I can anymore. Just needed to let this out... but I wish I could take a test today and it say yes... and then to actually have a healthy baby.-Thanks