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Conception Frustrations?
If you're trying to conceive and it's taking longer than you had hoped, what frustrations are you running into? Is it that just about everyone around you seems to be pregnant? Or, something someone said? Or, is you-know-who (your mom, his mom...) pressuring you or asking when way too often? Does it sometimes feel like TTC is more like Trying to Cope?
Now open for Posting: Conception Frustrations II
I must be nuts to do this all over again.
Posted by:
Mindless_Clone
on Sat Jul 19, 2008
Why am I even bothering? It's all going to end in tears and heaven knows I've had enough of them to last a lifetime.
It took 9 years, 8 months of clomid, countless dignity destroying tests and then 6 IVF attempts, a miscarriage before I could hold my own baby in my arms instead of avoiding holding other people's in case I break down.
18 months later and here I am thinking about a sibling and wondering whether nature might grant me a miracle this time to save me the hassle? I can't emotionally, put myself through IVF again, but I can't cope with the thought that I won't ever have another child. I can't describe how incredibly empowering it would be to conceieve naturally after all that - I've seen so many have it happen to them. Why not me?
So here we go, back to the fertility diet, the vitamins, the OPKs, the timed intercourse and legs up the wall afterwards in the vain hope that if, by some miracle, I did ovulate this month my old man's slightly dodgy swimmers can find the one tube that works and see their way to fertilising an egg.
And while I make myself miserable when the old bag arrives each month, will I miss out on the truely wonderful gift I already have?
Is it worth it?
Why can't I just switch off this desire for another child?
It took 9 years, 8 months of clomid, countless dignity destroying tests and then 6 IVF attempts, a miscarriage before I could hold my own baby in my arms instead of avoiding holding other people's in case I break down.
18 months later and here I am thinking about a sibling and wondering whether nature might grant me a miracle this time to save me the hassle? I can't emotionally, put myself through IVF again, but I can't cope with the thought that I won't ever have another child. I can't describe how incredibly empowering it would be to conceieve naturally after all that - I've seen so many have it happen to them. Why not me?
So here we go, back to the fertility diet, the vitamins, the OPKs, the timed intercourse and legs up the wall afterwards in the vain hope that if, by some miracle, I did ovulate this month my old man's slightly dodgy swimmers can find the one tube that works and see their way to fertilising an egg.
And while I make myself miserable when the old bag arrives each month, will I miss out on the truely wonderful gift I already have?
Is it worth it?
Why can't I just switch off this desire for another child?
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