Back on the TTC wagon!

Ok....traveling down this long(and i do mean long) road of trying to conceive has been a roller coaster from you know where! My dh and I have been trying to conceive mostly on our own for 5 years. Finally started Clomid in Feb. gave up trying again in March when AF showed, and now in Aug. we have decided to give it a go again! This time with all the charting and test! this is my story...in 2003 i lost twins in week 14, i had placenta previa so doc wanted to wait a week before d&c, and we did. Fair to say i have not been the same since! nor have i been able to conceive. My husband and i , both 26, both have children from previous relationships(each a daughter), and so long for a son of our own to bring our happy family even closer. But the pain you feel each and every month when you look down and see red, when you just knew this was the month you were going to get pregnant, can be an emotional butt whoopin' to say the least! every so often i find myself giving it up(but really im still hoping) for the sake of not going in sane, and for the sake of our sex life(which we all know to well gets scheduled around ovulation when you are ttc)but the want we both have for that son is undeniable, so this time it will be different! i have a HSG scheduled for next tuesday, hoping and keeping my fingers crossed that it does not show some awful scaring from the d&c 5 years ago, hoping that it will increase our chance for conc. this round, and mostly hoping that i have the strength to go through ttc again....because it seems to be even harder when everybody(and i mean everybody) around me is expecting, or having a baby, or finding out they accidentally got pregnant...if I could be so blessed.....

btw- i am very new here, i find comfort in all of your stories, and any advice would be appreciated....Baby dust to all... keep fingers crossed that all goes well at HSG tuesday....