TTC Can Be Soooo Frustrating!!!

Aarrgghh!! TTC is so frustrating!! DH and I have been TTC for almost 4 years, since first and only pregnancy resulted in a M/C. It just seems like it is never going to happen for us. I have been charting my menses, BBT, and OV days for 3 years now!! Last year we finally decided to seek help from a fertility specialist, who did several tests, and decided I needed to have laproscopic surgery to either remove what she thought might be a blocked tube, or to remove some endometriosis. I did have the surgery in August 2008, and it turned out the tube was not blocked, but did have to remove some endometriosis. Dr. was very optomistic that we would now be successful at getting pregnant!! It has now been 5 cycles since having the surgery, and still nothing!! Dr. has started me on Clomid this month, to see if this will work!! If the Clomid doesn't work by itself after three cycles then going to combine Clomid with IUI, and if that doesn't work (SIGH)well then I guess it is just not meant to be!! We can't afford IVF or a private adoption, so if this doesn't work I guess I well never get to experience the joys of motherhood!! To make it worse, it seems like everybody I know is getting pregnant or having babies, even my 16 year old niece, who is the last person needing to be having a baby right now!! Aarrgghh!!