Limbo

Yes and no for me... It's been a year and a half since my husbands and I last (2nd) m/c. My first m/c happened so fast about 5 weeks and so close to Christmas that I don't think I let effect me much emotionally and we ttc about three months after, got pregnant on the first try. I carried that pregnancy for about 11 weeks before we realized it was a blighted ovum. I was so attached by that point...I had a lot of female problems after that... I was chemically pregnant for two months fallowed by some noncancerous cyst...I had/ have no support from family and friends... Hum...I take that back I had a couple of my friends but they were ttc as well so I didn't want to dump this on them. All I had was my husband who works 12 hour days 6 days a week, and my beautiful healthy two year old to help me through those tough days. Had not been my child needing I would have had no reason to get out of bed...The miracle of children goes beyond conception. In the last six months I've gotten in athletics just to get my focus on what my body can do instead of what my body hasn't done. Now I am in great shape and feel really good about my accomplishments...I feel like I am limbo...There are new goals I'd like to see myself complete and yet every cycle or new pregnancy of others I feel so empty. I have a doc apt tomorrow and will discuss my fertility. I am hoping for the best...