TTC first child, with PCOS

I have been married for 2 years, and in March '09 my husband and I decided we wanted to ttc our first child. At the time, I didn't foresee us having any problems, why would we?

But after ttc for 6 months I made a doctors appointment, and after three blood tests was informed: at the age of 23 that I have PCOS.

I'm not going to lie, there are days when I'm aware it's going to take time, love, and effort to make our dream come true, but recently I have crumbled into a sobbing mess.

A close friend has just found out she is pregnant to a male friend of hers, completely out of the blue and un-planned. They are going to stay friends for the babies sake, but are not going to be together as a couple. I'm trying my hardest to be happy for her, but I genuinely can't. I have not yet met up with my friend, and dread the day I see her baby bump develop.

Being bitter is a new emotion to me, and I absolutely hate feeling this way. But, I feel i'm not in control of my emotions anymore. My poor husband has the hard task to console me every couple of weeks, when the effort to concieve begins to take its toll on me again. I feel like my main purpose in life is unattainable.

I had a Doctors appointment today, hoping to seek advice on Clomid and other fertility options. However, the doctor insists I try using Ovulation kits in the first instance. So right after my appointment, my husband and I went to our local chemist and ordered a Clear Blue Digital Ovulation Kit, which I will pick up in store tomorrow.

I'm going to keep trying, but for now, I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.