the TWW journey.. ugh....

Ok, here I am in the TWW again. I am 5dpo and I have such doubt that I will turn out pregnat. Actually am a bit confused I think I bd timing was good. But on 4dpo and 5dpo my temp has dropped. It is still above the coverline but it dropped 2 days in a row. I will see if it goes back up tomorrow. I am really getting upset to see that it may never happen for me. The only thing that I would say ios my bb is a bit tnder than usual. But that is all I feel. I am sure AF will come on the 30. My bf say's I am so negative. I am just getting hopes up fro a big let down and that hurts. I am 39 yo post myomectomy and am hypothyroid. So I have alot against me. I try to think positive every once in awhile but again, have prepare for the big let down. Well all I can say is just keep trying. I hope I will eventually concieve. But I will keep you posted if AF comes or not. Here is hoping...... keep your fingers crossed. Baby dust and good luck to all...