TTC journey causing me to spiral into depression.

I just got my period last night and have just had a bawl fest :( I got off BCP in March 2010, got my period 25th March, then waited close to two months later for my next period: 1st May 2010. Then waited again and got my period on 28th July. And got it again today 13th Sept. I am seriously going crazy and getting so depressed. My husband travels a lot for work, sometimes 5 days in a row, sometimes 2 weeks, and next month he will be away for three whole weeks. I am harbouring resentment towards him as I feel that his work is to blame, and if we could BD on a constant basis, we could get lucky. But when he's home, he insists we BD ALL the time, which I've insisted will not help if he's away so much. He says that we never know and that something is better than nothing.

I got some bloodwork done to see if I'm healthy, and so far, I'm ok. It's not a fertility test tho, so I dont know details. Judging by my period dates, don't you think my periods are out of wack? To make matters worse, I live in Italy, where hardly anyone speaks English, and the medicaly system is SUCH a headache you won't believe it.

I am SO UPSET today, and I'm all alone at home, hubs travelling again. Though you may say that we havent been trying for very long, I feel like it has been AGES, especially since my best friend got preggers immediately after her wedding, and friends and family around me are popping babies like nobody's business. I go on Facebook to get off things abit, and what do I see, MORE BABY pictures everywhere. And then EVERYONES asking and hinting to us, I'm getting so pissed.

Am having period cramps now, and it's not helping, looks I'll just continue bawling. :( :(