Wishful Thinking hopes to turn into a blessing

TTC for 2 yrs now and I've tried telling myself that if i dont get anxious about it that i won't be so dissapointed if i get a BFN.. My husband and i want children sooooo badly..... I've had irregular periods most of my life up to about 2 years ago whean they became on average 32 to 36 days in my cycle. Then to make a long story short i had a cycle that lasted about 99 day :-( . SO after seeing a fertility specialist my Dr wanted to to lose 35lbs and i did. in the mean time we discover that i am Diabetic type 2 and im put on Glumetza and Neevo for prenatal. go back to my Dr and my HB A1C is the same.. so then he tells me to lose 25 more lbs and i have. i go to the Dr this Wed and lately my periods have been on 55cd's. I am currently on Cd 27 and have never Experienced cramping between periods.. i have been cramping for 8 days now mildly a few times in a day.... Confused and at the same time i dont want to get my hopes up.......