AHHHH, just AHHHH!

Okay, really? This is just strange. According to my past cycles I should have started on Feb 1. Well, as of today, no AF and BFN. Let me explain why I'm so frustrated and irritated. About 3 days late I "spotted" and when I say that I mean that I couldn't wait to test so I took my morning urine into a cup and when I wiped, blood. Wasted test I thought, here she is and it was a first response early detection-BFN. I put on a pad and got about a half dollar size bit of spotting on that. Took a shower, used a tampon after because I was sure she was here, tampon was dry, I attempted a pad again, dime size spotting. Next day, no need for anything. Oh and all through this I have been checking my cervix, it's been high. I mentioned that because the day after the blood on pad that's the only way I could figure if there was a flow coming or not. Well I got a bit of brown discharge with a pinkish tint. I know you're all thinking implantation right? I have no idea. I thought maybe because the Sunday, nothing, no colored discharge at cervix. Now today after the BFN I still had nothing at the source, until the afternoon. I thought Okay here she is. Again I'm wearing a pad and nothing!!!! Has anyone else experience this? I'm just looking for some input and maybe just a I promise you're not crazy. I thought maybe it was an anovulatory cycle as someone suggested on a previous post of mine, but I had fertile mucus and soft cervix all that stuff... Just wanting to vent, thanks to whomever reads, comments or whatever. God bless and I know things are in his hands and I just need to let go and relax!