Is anyone else afraid?

I had two misscarages in 2009 and 2010. In febuary of this year I tried with a new donor and became pregnant on our very first try. The problem with that pregnancy was that there were 3 eggs that became fertilized and did not attach properly. They were all gone by May of this year. I am not on any treatments, this was all natural. We are just doing at home insimination with fresh donor sperm. I am trying again this month, but I am afraid. I keep trying to relax, but it is hard. I wonder if anyone else feels this way.

I am also really hoping for only one or two babies this time. This will be my first child and I am afraid of having far too many babies for a first time mom to handle! It is my turnt for twins on both my mother's and father's side of the family. I just sort of feel too old for too many babies at this point.

Is there anything I can do to help with the fear?