TTC After M/C

I've found that most people don't relate. I don't think that you really can unless you have gone through it. It's something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, but, most people really don't understand the pain a woman goes through. I know I'll carry it with me forever.

Since then I have seen an infertility dr and geneticist. All tests came back normal except I have a heterozygous MTHFR mutation. The frustrating part is 30-40% of the population has this mutation and there are several studies that show conflicting results. Some say that it could have an effect on blood clotting (as my infertility dr agrees), and others say it has no affect on blood clotting because it is a hetero not homozygous mutation (as my geneticist agrees).

So, I have a prescription to take a low dose of Heparin once I start TTC again, but I don't think I will use it. I also have a script to take progesterone supp. once I start TTC.

It has taken several months to regain some normalcy, psychologically and physically. My best friend had a m/c, and I was able to lean on her, but it was hard b/c we got pregnant at the same time (my first time)so she was pregnant when I lost both. I could talk to her, but I didn't want to bring her down or scare her.

It was hard to talk to my husband b/c I couldn't bear to make him sad. So I just started talking to friends and family, and found out that several people have shared in this tragedy. Sharing my experience has really helped heal my soul.

I am in nursing school, so I have delayed our 3rd time trying until this summer. I am hoping for lucky #3, as it will be our 3rd time trying and our 3rd year anniversary.

I wish the best to the others that have had to suffer this emotional/physical tragedy and pray that you find a way to heal your soul.