Conception Frustrations II?

well... AF came again. i am emotionally to the breaking point. only 1 1/2 month left till its one year of TTC. i just really dont understand why its so hard for us because we both already have kids. i am only 21 yrs old and my hubby is 27. i should be getting prego off the bat.
i feel like i am on an emotional rollercoaster. tomorrow i go to get an ultrasound i guess to see if there might be anything visibly wrong and then a dr appt next week. then on top of it all my hubby has to go get a SA. he is very embarrassed about it.
also, cause all this stress has got me smoking again which i know doesnt help things but its all i can do not to cry all day.
i found out yesterday that his ex, the mother of his 2 kids, is prego. i feel like i just cant give him what he wants. like i'm failing.
we have even tried the whole forgettig that we are TTC and do sponaneous things but still no luck.

TTC for 7 months now and I never thought it could be so tough! My first child was conceived first go around! grrrrr I've had two m/cs and now I have been spotting for three days, a week before AF is due!

My cup still feels half full since I had something that mimicked AF when I was pregnant with my first child, my husband confirmed that memory, thank goodness! And the m/cs were later, a week after AF was due, so since it's a week BEFORE AF is due, I am hoping this is heavy-ish implantation spotting, and not another m/c! I want another baby SO very badly.

I want more than one more, in fact, so I don't want to waste anymore time! I want a big family because my husband and I were only children and we felt pretty lonely growing up. Of course I don't want that for Aurora. I am so ready for this next baby! It's been four years since the last sweet little bundle arrived.

Please let this be our month! Every time I go to the bathroom, I dread seeing anything that resembles a full-blown period. Thankfully, there was only reddish cm the second day and not today. Hopefully that is a good sign. I dread BMs because I am afraid I will see blood! I don't like feeling this way. I almost wish I didn't track my periods, so I wouldn't know exactly what was going on because this sure is stressful. lol Oh well, that's life.

I am a lucky girl because I have one perfect angel and that is ultimately all I really need. I wish I could test for pregnancy, but I am afraid I will see faint positives like before and then suffer the feeling that I knew I had a m/c. Give me a break, Universe! These past two years have been so difficult for me and having a new baby would make life so much fun for my family. Aurora talks about all the things she will teach her brother or sister, and it stings right now knowing it might not be happening right now. Pray for me, please! Loads of Baby Dust to all my fellow frustrarians! xo

Among the 2WW, family questions and overall personal breakdowns - what does everyone else use to get through? My husband is trying his best to understand, but really he is only a boy so he has no clue what I'm feeling. My best friend has a beautiful baby girl and while she says she understands she didn't have any trouble getting pregant.

Are there any books or resources you rely on? Any blogs?

Looking for distractions and support suggestions....

I have been TTC for about 4 months now and no luck as of yet. I thought I was preg this month. Why? I did not have much symptoms, but AF came about 4 to 6 days early. It started of as spotting then very light to very light. But then I had medium flow and 2 small clots come out. I am am still cureently spotting for 2 days. This of course is not normal for me. I only have little tingling in my breast. I called my docotrs office and they told me to take a pregnancy test if positive call them if not then it is probaly just my period changing or stress. But I am not stressed. I took the test last night and it was negative. Do not know if it was to early or just really not pregnant. It all prpbalby in my head. I will go POAS for ovulation and chart my temp again and hope for luck this time. baby dust to all. and to all good luck. Just needed to vent....

Well, we haven't told anybody that we are trying on my side just my husbands dad and sis so nobody is really pushing it or asking a lot of questions. i think that it's mainly that i feel like i'm failing. it only took 1 time to get pregnant with my daughter with someone that i regret( not that i will ever regret my daughter) and it's taking a year with the man i love. i was on the mirena for not even a year when i had it removed.
i will admit seeing everybody that is pregnant is a little depressing. even my hubbies sis is prego after quitting her depo in 1 month. i am very happy for all the pregos i just dunno what i am doing wrong or why i cant have a bsby. i want one so bad that it is stressing me out and tearing at my emotions.
my hubby has 2 kids of his own and all we want is one of our own. to kinda just complete the family.

Been ttc since aug 25 09 and still no luck. it's been almost a year and dr dunno whats going on. we already have kids and we are still in our 20's. emotions have deffinitely set in. i'm almost readdy to give up cuz its stressing me out.