Anyone in my TTC phase?

I am on day 11dpo and i started spotting yesterday. I have some of the weirdest cycles and have been wanting a baby for months. I dont no what to do anymore. I watch them baby shows and i just cry and cry and cry because i want to be a mom sooooo bad. Everywhere i look i see nothing but pregnant women and i want to cry. it seems like the friends i have that are pregnant just rub it im my face and when people ask me when im going to have one i get stumped on what to say. Also, it doesnt help when my own family doesnt want me to have one because my niece (who is 4) will get jealous of a new family member. (jus so you all no im married and live in my own house and barely ever see my niece) but it hurts to have family say those things...I dont no what to do..

I am now 10dpo and I am trying to decide if i should test today or not. I have the early detection tests, but is 10dpo still too early? should i test or should i wait until the day af is supposed to come?

I am now on 9dpo and starting having cramping this morning also lower back pain. AF isnt due for 5 more days and Ive never experienced cramping so early before. Usually they start 2 to 3 mins before af starts flowing. Hopefully the cramps i'm feeling are due to implantation and af doesnt how her face. My husband and I are really looking forward to our BFP!

It's been a while since I posted, sorry guys!

STATUS:
25 yrs old
TTC since November 2009
On pill from October 2004-November 2009
Married, with 5 yr old daughter
Had cycle irregularities, popssible early miscarriage in April, and doctor put me on Provera in May.
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I've taken two cycles of Provera. The first time was May 3rd, and I took it for the 10 days, and didn't start my period until 12 days after I finished the medicine. (A total of 22 days from the start of the medicine.) That period lasted 7 days, and I began my second dose of Provera June 3rd. This time, however, I started my period on the 9th day of the medicine! So 13 days sooner than I did the previous cycle. I don't know how on earth that was supposed to regulate my cycle, when it actually made me have a 17 day cycle. GRR.

Now my husbands insurance is temproarily discontinued from his lay-off. So I can't get on a third dose of the Provera or start Clomid. I can't even get my regualr PAP until about August or September which is a few months later than I had it scheudled. So for now, I am hoping Mother Nature will take her stand and maybe taking the Provera at least got me to where I know I am ovulating regularly. I haven't been charting anything except for my period days, and I noted my CM the past 3 days b/c it has been EWCM and Creamy. The prediction says my frtile days start tomorrow, and ovulation is expected the 28th. However, I am thinking it's sooner than that judging by the change in my CM the last few days. Hoepfully we can get it right on our own before August or September!! How is everyone else? I haven't been on here in a couple months!

Ok, here I am in the TWW again. I am 5dpo and I have such doubt that I will turn out pregnat. Actually am a bit confused I think I bd timing was good. But on 4dpo and 5dpo my temp has dropped. It is still above the coverline but it dropped 2 days in a row. I will see if it goes back up tomorrow. I am really getting upset to see that it may never happen for me. The only thing that I would say ios my bb is a bit tnder than usual. But that is all I feel. I am sure AF will come on the 30. My bf say's I am so negative. I am just getting hopes up fro a big let down and that hurts. I am 39 yo post myomectomy and am hypothyroid. So I have alot against me. I try to think positive every once in awhile but again, have prepare for the big let down. Well all I can say is just keep trying. I hope I will eventually concieve. But I will keep you posted if AF comes or not. Here is hoping...... keep your fingers crossed. Baby dust and good luck to all...

what is the story with my body im gettinhg a little sick of this... i usually run a 27 or 28 day cycle. n my af usually lasts 6 days. ok i was 9 days late then started on the 7th of june...i was suppose to ovulate on the 19th or 20th and i started spotting last night n today nothing. i don't understand what is going on... im just so annoyed with my body at this point in time... any advice or stories that people have gone through would be appreciated thanks.